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New Beginnings at Unexpected Times

I woke up today feeling like I had a fresh start. Admittedly, there are a few things that are “fresh” today, but I can’t figure out why I felt that way the very instant I woke up. It was definitely appreciated, though, as I cried 2x yesterday and life’s been feeling kinda stuffy to me lately.

Obviously, today is October 1st, and it finally feels like fall. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve come to love the autumn season more and more, especially as it leads up to Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas — all times of fun & celebration. I’ve decided to host Christmas dinner for my family & Dayne’s immediate family this year, and I am beyond excited about that. I love party planning!

Remember this look from my great-aunt Louise’s surprise 90th birthday party? Acting like kids & having fun! We had goody bags and crazy straws in the retirement community.

Take a look back at last year’s post about Christmas decorating and Aunt Louise’s party here.

Beyond my excitement for Christmas, I’m starting the New Testament today in my Daily Walk Bible (see my guest post from yesterday about finishing the Old Testament). There’s something really fresh about that — after 400 years of silence in Israel, God breaks His silence by sending John the Baptist followed by His Son. It’s a big frigging deal.

I’m also finally starting my anti-anxiety medication today, after months of putting it off (you can read about my struggles with anxiety & depression throughout my blog, but more specifically here, here, and here). I’m scared (as usual), but if it helps, it will be a great thing.

Dayne and I decided to switch out our summer quilt for our down comforter last night, and it is soooooo cozy.

I chose not to make the bed or de-wrinkle the comforter AND to leave that “PCOS for Dummies” book out so that you can see that we are human, too.

And lastly, I decided to intentionally embrace my writing and make it a part of my routine, and I have defied the kittens & their chewing issues so I could get my desk space back:

That’s Theodore. He’s the main culprit.

My fresh & improved writing space.

So – on this October 1st – what is fresh in your life?

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T-55 Minutes Until Dayne Comes Home

Hello, blog. I am so sorry I have been carrying on this fake, one-sided relationship with you for the last few weeks. And by one-sided, I mean, you are all over me and I have just about zero interest in you. Maybe I’ll come crawling back when I’m lonely and have nothing else to do, but, for now, get a hold of yourself.

Seriously. Blogging was so much easier when I worked part-time. Now it is just about the last thing I want to do… in the same realm of desire on the to-do list as going to the dentist to have my fillings checked, calling around to figure out where my veil went, figuring out how to work my external hard drive, cleaning out the humidifier with vinegar, and doing yet one more load of laundry.

I’m a married woman with a full-time job that wakes me up at 5:30am everyday who is just trying to maybe prioritize going for regular walks and holding down at least two friendships. Which is why today, when I knew Dayne was coming home late from work, I got home around 4:30 and – after making 2 (count them, 2) important phone calls – I immediately changed into sweatpants, poured myself a glass of wine, lit a nice candle, pulled out my laptop, and started snacking on nachos and brownies.

I’m not kidding.

Blog, I do miss you. But my life is filled with so many other nagging and somewhat important things on a daily basis. And let’s not forget to mention the holidays, which just about wrecked any sense of normalcy or routine in my life.

I’m feeling a little out of whack. Two things I’m doing right as of now: 1) answering the phone politely every single time that person calls our office during the day, even though it feels akin to Chinese Water Torture, and 2) reading my Daily Walk Bible everyday (which feels great).

Everything else is sort of on a learning curve.

Thank you for bearing with me, blog, and I’m very hopeful for 2012. Our calendar is the clearest it’s ever been, and I think I will soon rediscover the joy in writing and reflecting on a regular basis.