It’s Wednesday morning and it has been way too long since I’ve blogged (five & a half days, to be exact) and I’ve been feeling the lack of writing in my bones and I AM BACK! Finally.
Things have been crazy busy in my neck of the woods, and I am wondering how I’m going to find time going forward to reduce and to write. Reduce (v.): 1. to bring down to a smaller extent, size, amount, number, etc. 2. to lower in degree, intensity, etc. In everyday functioning, I’m like a sauce bubbling & boiling on the stove, needing to be reduced to a calm, warm simmer so the best parts of me can mix together and be brought out. That’s what writing does to me — puts everything back in its place and brings out the best parts of life, faith, love, and what I’m learning.
Right now I’m supposed to be getting ready to get my teeth drilled, but I wasn’t feeling well, so I rescheduled the appointment. That means extra free time for laundry & blogging!
However, unexpected free time doesn’t count. I can’t just look forward to free time to blog — I have about a million & 1 things on my to-do list that could keep me busy from the end of 2011 to the beginning of 2013, and I won’t “find” time for anything that’s actually good for my soul.
So, I have to put into practice what I just learned from The War of Art by Steven Pressfield — it’s time to go pro. That means dedicating myself to sitting down to write, even when it’s not most convenient or when I’m not most inspired. Because it’s good for me; it’s what I was created to do, and God speaks to me through it. And I feel lousy and scattered when I don’t.
Did you know I usually write in the morning? On my days off, I usually get up and eat breakfast and drink coffee and blog – sometimes interspersed with some morning TV, although I find that’s less and less of a distraction. When I organize my thoughts and purge what is on my mind & heart, I can actually go on feeling good about my day. Not that I don’t have good days when I don’t write, but I feel peaceful and focused and even-keeled on the days that I write. Like starting the day by processing everything actually awakens my brain to processing everything else for the rest of the day.
I’m starting a new full-time job in less than two weeks — this entire blog post was supposed to be about that amazing transformation, but I guess something more important was hiding in my subconscious. Yes, I might love and feel called to my new job (so far so good!), but I am also called to write. SO I need to make time for both.
Which means reducing… reducing time spent on chores, meaningless tasks, TV time, and even (painfully) time with Dayne. If I don’t spend every waking moment that I’m here in the apartment with Dayne actually with Dayne, it means that the time I actually do have once the writing is finished will be all the sweeter, because my soul will be at peace and my attention will be focused.
What do you feel called to do? What makes you tick/feel good? What puts you at peace and simultaneously drives you? How can you make time for it? What can you reduce?